Empty Spaces

Im gay. Im a homo. Im queer. I like men. I like seeing naked men. Im a bender. Im a fag. yeah whatever.

There i said it.

Why can't I just accept it? Why does it have to be such a big deal? Why can't i just embrace who i am without hating myself? Fuck. Why is everythign so fucking difficult.

Yeah i know i've just admitted to myself that im gay. But i already know that I'm only saying it so that i can pretend to be accepting of myself when i really aren't.