Empty Spaces

:-P so that was like the only quote I could remember from the movie.

Tonight was a blast. After helping my friend move some stuff from his old place to his new one (it was like 600m up the road) we went and saw Toy Story 3, the 9PM session. Man, that movie was awesome. I can't believe its only a PG rated kids movie!! :-P Honestly, Toy Story 3 is a really well done movie. Plenty of action, suspense, drama and comedy. It did get a bit dark at times but overall very cohesive and great story telling.

You know what was really cool though? We were the ONLY people in that movie. I couldn't believe it! :-P It's kind of been like a fantasy of mine to be in a cinema where there were no other people around. I guess that fantasy has half been fulfilled, but it would have been nice if i had someone to cuddle with. :-P i have to admit, I did kind of let my mind wander, because I know that it'd probably be rare to be in the same situation again.

Boring day turned awesome :-)

My last day tomorrow before I fly home. I was going to ask TN if he wanted to go see a movie tomorrow night. I don't know if I should though. He'll probably say he has to work on Saturday and make up some excuse as to why he can't come.

You know what? screw it. Im not going to ask him. I've thrown enough hints at him. Over the last week while we've chatted, I've already asked him a few times if he wanted to do something, and he knows that I'm flying home on Saturday. I've also mentioned a few movies but he didn't seem interested.


God... What possessed me to even think about asking him...

I wonder if he thinks I'm getting a bit desperate and a tad creepy? Or maybe im just not a good enough friend. meh.. whatever.

So i got off my ass and went to uni and got a new student ID card :-)I wanted to keep my old card because i wanted to keep the photo, but they wouldn't let. Even though it had expired :-(

I also had my Go card renewed too! :-) no more $7.80 tickets. ahh the joys of being a student.

I'm at uni atm. In the library using the internet because im bored, and using the internet at uni is soo much more interesting than using it at home.. not. lol. I like the iMacs though. They're cool. too bad they're running windows.

So i texted a friend to see if he wanted to hang out or something, but instead he asked me to help him move his stuff out of his old place into his new one. :-( Not that i mind helping, but he doesn't get back from work until 5.30'ish and so that'd mean after moving, it'll be too late to go see a movie or hang out or whatever, since he has to work tomorrow morning. lol now i kinda wished i hadn't texted him.

I was thinking, your a blog right? So technically your sort of like a diary. So should i start my posts from now on with Dear Diary... hmm maybe Dear Blog. That kind of sounds silly doesn't it?

Im surprised how many people are at uni even though its holidays (outside that is). The library is heaps quiet though.

Complete and utter boredom has just set in again. I fuckin hate it. So i've checked my vitals (emails, FB etc) youtubed a bit, watched a bit of TV and now I've run out of things i want to do.

:-) oh im also home alone again sweet (not..). you'd think that since im home ALONE I'd be able to erm... keep myself busy. but yeah that gets boring too.

I also booked my flight home on Saturday :-) woot. can't wait. I want to go back, but now im sort of regretting it. There's just too much crap going on at home atm that i don't really want to get into. And i also have a great fear of "missing out" on things happening here if i fly home.

mmm White Chocolate Mocha. Best thing thats happened to me all day :-)

not sure what im going to do now. The last 3-4 days i've just been sitting on my ass doin sfa. The weather is slightly clearing up. Still a bit gray though.

Did i mention im utterly bored? I hate being inside.

Seriously, today sucks majorly. I got my uni results back and needless to say I wasn't impressed. But then again my results weren't unexpected, so that made it less of a shock to me. Still, it was a disappointing result. I failed a subject. I really don't know what to do with myself anymore. My graduation date was supposed to be the end of this year, but now I don't think it will be anymore. I can't sit a supplementary exam either, since this subject wasn't exactly a core subject to my degree. Its also only offered in semester 1. :-(

It's so fitting that today is overcast, cold, gray and depressing. Again I'm sitting at home by myself, bored. I checked for flights back home, but they were really quite expensive which made me contemplate not going back at all. I really want to go home though, not that I've got anyone at home to hang out with. I like to drive when I'm bored, or feeling down. It's my way of escaping life. I drive.

I talked to TN last night. I asked him if he wanted to see a movie with me. He declined, and said something about having to work late. Fine. Whatever.

My sister is in Newcastle with her BF. I'm sitting in my room by myself. :'(

I want to go see a movie. But I've got noone to go with. I don't want to go by myself because it'd be weird.

Yesterday I went on a 6km walk because I was so damn bored. I walked pass the car dealerships. I love cars. I thought about going there again today, but I've been there so many times the staff might think I'm weird. I don't want to go walking again today because I've walked the route so many times it gets boring. I walk when im bored or alone. At home i drive.

oh... about movies. I wanted to see Nightmare on Elm street. But noone wants to come with me.

I wish I had a car :-(

hey blog, it's all in my mind yeah? the fact i feel so worthless right now? I got turned down from every single internship/grad position i applied for. These results are probably just another nail in my coffin. Like i mean i can have the most impressive sounding resume, but one look at my academic report and who is going to want to hire me? Noone evidently. Can i blame my emotional problems for my bad grades? Or should i just harden up? :-( Thing is, i know i can do so much better. I can sit there and spruik myself to my employers and tell them about how much potential i have and how good i can be, but if i can't even back it up with solid evidence, why would any employer take me seriously?

I feel like my life is confined to a little tiny box. And i can't break out of it.

:-( there is no life in me.

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:'(

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FML

Although he's a bit of a douche, I really like his music.

John Mayer - Half of my heart Ft Taylor Swift <3

The Sign says: Beach Unattended

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The List:

So I decided to write down a list of 'friends'. By friends I mean those who I'm comfortable enough with and know well enough to invite over and just hang out. I struggled to write down 6 names. Even of those 6 names, 2 of them work pretty much full time now so i hardly get to see them, 1 of them has been overseas for a while and only just got back not too long ago and I haven't talked to him much since he got back because he's always busy or away or something.

No wonder why I'm bored and depressed most of the times. I really am a loner, and that list just confirms it.