Empty Spaces

So... I kinda lost it tonight. It started off with petty little argument with my sister. and then it escalated from there. I called home, but only to get dad, so i thought i would talk to him about it. but he just said some nasty things that really hurt.

Then my sister walked into my room demanding that I tell her what i was talking about and to whom. I told her to go away and leave me alone. But i broke down so bad. I just started bawling my eyes out and couldnt stop. she kept asking me what the person on the phone had said to me to make me this way. I told her to go away.

Then mum rang. And i had to answer. And i just cried and bawled my eyes out to her. I could barely talk. All i could hear was mum telling me that it was ok and that i need to stop crying.

It was that bad, i was hyperventilating, my limbs were going numb and i almost blacked out. It took mum 2 hours to calm me down.

Why is it that mums always have such a great ability make sense of everything and to make things alright again? I'm seeing clear once again.

After that, i went out with Hayden because i needed to get away for a bit. I really like him.

And now my chest, and insides and everything hurts from crying so much...